short one.......

life isn't alot of fun right now.
 my doctor hinted that i may have to make some life style / dietary changes. guess what? i've decided....i'm keeping it full fat. and full frontal.  : P

FM

the world has stopped
this day into that day
into this day


smudgy and burning
tortured limbs
in this endless bed
this bed i stick to
magnetized


hot fat tears
pulsing spine
i wash my hair, why?

the world has stopped

this disability thing...

isn't any fun anymore. 
i used to be an intelligent, funny, creative force of nature. at least in my head i was. one or two people may have even agreed with me.


years of inactivity, months and months of pain and 'all my children' are robbing me of me.   

however....i am going down swinging. maybe i should be holding a paintbrush?

being broke...the bright side . part one.

our family has taken some serious financial hit in last couple of years.


curiously, there are some things that have been improved by the absence of that much needed second income (mine).


food.
food has never tasted so good.. in an effort to keep costs down i have had  to expand my grocery horizons - shopping the sales and creating meals around the cheapest ingredients Shoprite has to offer. i have learned to bake bread. nothing is tastier than just baked bread ...expensive packaged breads pale in comparison. i make my own mayonnaise. of course you can find a deal on the major brands here and there..but fresh mayonnaise is decadent, delicious and cheap. spread it on the bread you just made...well who needs anything else? except maybe coffee, formerly deep roasted gourmet beans...now Bustelo...3.49 a can. As rich and bold as any expensive fresh ground and seriously satisfying on a cold Catskill morning.

Hello....

is this thing on?

i'm late to the game....and i'm not entirely sure my life is exciting enough to blog about. but what the heck...it sure is prettier than Facebook.